walking away

  • There is a very specific type of confidence it takes to burn a bridge…While still standing on it…With no backup plan…And a gas can labeled “my ego said it was fine.” These are the same people who dramatically exit your life like they’re starring in a season finale…Door slam.Speech prepared.Voice shaking like they just discovered…

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  • There’s a seat that not everyone earns.Front row. Close enough to see the sweat, the cracks, the tremble in someone’s voice when the act starts slipping. You’re sitting there. Not participating. Not reacting. Not jumping on stage to “save” anything that was never yours to fix. Just watching. And on that stage… chaos dressed up…

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  • Don’t Ask Alice-Entry IV

    (headphones on-Klergy-Dangerous Game) I used to mistake explanation for honesty.I believed clarity required access, that if I articulated myself precisely enough, people would stop reaching for versions of me that no longer existed. That isn’t what explanation is for. Explanation is a stabilizer.It keeps other people regulated.It reassures them that the arrangement hasn’t changed. When…

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  • Don’t Ask Alice-Entry II

    (Headphones on-My Tears Ricochet-Taylor Swift) I used to think walking away meant something had gone wrong.That it required an explanation.That I would feel guilty for it later. None of that happened. What actually happened was simpler.People kept trying to hand me their mess like it was my responsibility to hold it.Their drama. Their spirals. Their…

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  • The Door I Open

    Good morning, sweet day. We rise with one foot in front of the other, stepping out onto the ledge of yet another beginning. Someone once asked me if I ever grow weary of starting over. No, I told them. Better to begin again, even from the ashes, than to rot in places that no longer…

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  • Where the Shoes Return

    I told them I wanted you to feel what you had put me through.Not to punish. Not to see you break. Just so, for a single fractured hour, you could look out of my eyes and know the rooms I learned to live inside. There is a particular cruelty to being moved through someone else’s…

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